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i just love slacking at home. can relax and eat and eat and eat. think gotta put on weight again because this is the study week. i tend to eat alot when i study. i find that not only me having this problem but people around me too.



very sad when i woke up and found that my daddy's feet is getting swollen and swollen. im afraid this is due to his diabetes. recently we rarely talk. he admit to hospital at least once a year. most of the cases are high sugar level, breathing difficulties. i really hope he will be fine. i love him and he is not as happy as last time. may his god look after him. [ sounds like we are sharing diff gods]



maybe i will be facing the same illness. inheritance. so i shall take care of my diet now. but i just love eating KFCs. but sometimes it can be really a turn off when i see those tender sloggy fat bouncy chickens.



recently i discovered a sex blog. the posts were all interesting at first. but over the times, the blogger keeps repeating the same stuff over again and again but using different words to describe in every occasion. she must be damn horny! awww. she is only a 20 year old girl and has already tackled quite a number of married men. i just cannot imagine that my 5Cs husband in future will be treating me so good and having an affair with a 21 yr old undergraduate. very sad if this were to happen. why must girls seduce other guys and spoil happiness? why on earth we people in the world just cant live happily and worry about sutffs that they should not be worrying? i guessed i think too much. heck to yes or no. im still young.



i ever wondered if i were to die. how will it feel when im in a coffin. maybe i might get wrapped in white cloth and get dumped in the sea? maybe i might just get dumped in the soil and buried but got rejected by god cause i got some body arts in a nice way? and maybe i might just got hung on the pole at the peak of a hill? different religions have different practices. i wonder which religion i might end up with. i gotta find my true god. lol. its not funny.



i think too much for today. guess i should not stay at home too much.