the beginning of my day begins with enjoyable suntanning with shir, jen, jess. yep and joyce? lol. some people just dont bring the sun. [nah, its not me] and eating cheezels with sand isnt that bad at all. :) something that also alarms me that momomomomo got love bites at her nehneh! eeyer. i know is not bruise la. asdfgh.


overall my day is like 50 nice. 50 sucky.


why must she give in so much for everything and didnt get that much in return."
why must she be the one who always cheer people up but people just take it as a gift."
why must she abides people and swallow that heavy load stuck in the throat."
why must she always try so hard to exist to be happy when the interior is of otherwise."
why she still couldnt accept her dad."
why she sucks at whatever things."
and why and why.


so many things but left with no remedy. i feel that im so dumb. its always friends. and im till this level that i really feel fatigue is taking a toll on me.


nobody would ever understand. and i miss him.