self ish

friday night was not as fun as i expected. im sick of nightlife. i ve been saying this but i still go club. all because i dont wish to let my friends down. i ve realised i ve always been putting friends first.

after zouk, i took cab home. i only left with a pity of $14.20. i asked that taxi driver. he insisted saying not enough. but i believed from my house to grand copthorne does not cost much. i was kinda irritated and i no longer has the strength to rebutt anymore. alright, so i told him, when about to reach 14 dollars just drop me anywhere and he said OK! ZZomgg. stingy taxi driver.
the meter was 6.70 before i turned to see again when passing an0ther traffic light which was 7.20. the meter runs so fast la. kns. die liaos. going to reach 14 bucks which im aware of. i thought i can have some mercy from him and he will send me from courts to bukit panjang which is rather impossible to assume.

he turned and said: how ahH? now 14.25 dollars ready. not enough lei. i also cannot send you to bukit panjang. you must get down.

me replied restlessly: just pull over. but i only got 14.20. SORRY no 5 CENTS. [i stressed the word 5 cents to be sarcastic]


so im left on the bus stop for around 2 hours. the night was lonely and i dont believe that i felt so weak and teared. my both sleeves were stained with eyeliner and tear. i was lucky enough to spot a helmet. i thought god was trying to help so i thought of elfe to fetch. and what i got was im tired as an answer. i wanna say no more. i dont want this to be an emo entry. and thanks zal, i ve forgotten that you are working on sat.


conclusion for today. i dont trust friends anymore. i ve seen through them. so do they actually worth me sacrificing?

6.42am liaos. i would like to sleep and dont emo.

i belive im strong.