So fast, it has been exactly 4 months and 8 days that I've been working in Bethany. I just think that everything is so in place. The residents here, the staffs, the place etc. It just fix so nicely into what I wanna do. And its a good place for me to learn how to love all kinds of people. :) As well as a good place for me to establish my knowledge I've learnt in school and also some common sense stuff to apply on works to be rectified.

I still can recall that I just dreaded going to work daily as I keep making mistakes and feeling upset about it and thinking that why am I so reckless and why is my heart not at work but somewhere else? I also remembered that I often look at my calender and thinking when should I take my off day to relax and to be away from work. I just think that my work load is alot but still, not as much as my the other colleague.

Though it is something that I am not specialised in doing, I am glad that I learnt something new and learning something that is out of my interest and the best thing is, I don't whine. :) Thank God. I've been praying everyday for Him to give me the strength to serve Him and doing it with all my heart. Very often, I failed. Sorry Father.

I wanna do what I can as a daughter and stop running away from him. I have to honour him all the while but it's hard to. Cause he don't really wish to talk to me. Perhaps I assume that he does not want to talk to me. Maybe it's time to cherish him more and shower him with more love.

Life has been wonderful for me and still the greatest problem is my life right now is still my family. I should stop running away from this problem and do something about it.

I seriously can't imagine what would happen if I have not met Him. He means so much to me and He is my saviour. He gives me peace. He is gracious. He is my everything. He is indescribable. God is who He is. Even God told Moses 'I am who I am' in Exodus 3:14. With human intellect, there is no one word can really describe God at all.

Thank you for bringing me to live. :)